Sapien Logos: Emergency
Piloting Instruction Manual
s.l.e.p.i.m.

Introduction

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Well, most stuff anyway.
Honestly, hopefully at least one thing.

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Table of Contents

Introduction

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Table of Contents

Why?
There is fundamentally only one question.
god
the truest path
i know what the devil is afraid of
human magnets
Thinking an unthinkable thought
Jung's Secret
the monkey brain
how can one own reality?
Paper Trail
The Deranged
the creation of the universe
Reality
transcendental beauty
rope, tightening
thoughts that should have been thrown away

Who?
mary jane
Chakra Cheat Sheet
Practical Advice
being thankful
can't use better words
a conversation with someone
what would you do?
watching through my own eyes
belief
word mouth shapes
why we yawn

Communication

When I try to say stuff at you
So let's destroy language
In which humour is explained
Ranked List: How to prove you give a shit about pretty much anything
do you trust me?
Art
Read/Write
bumper stickers
the yogi
Schizophrenia

Love
Thinking about not hurting feelings while saying stuff
Loving another person
the feminine と the masculine
order of operations
relationships observation
When you have dinner with another person
Why love is the answer
water people
a personal indulgence

Science
Playing Catch
We are made of nothing
camera obscura
something electrocuted my brain for imagining this too vividly
Explaining the Fermi Paradox
the fifth state of matter
designing an ansible
More on how patterns of vortexes interact with each other:

The Unfinished
Guide for Entheogens

Why

There is fundamentally only one question.

let us start
with the easy stuff

the question you ask each turtle
on your way down

why?

we are a program

a calculating set of swirling vortices
but this is beside the point

we can spend a lifetime not realizing
that a/the simple goal
of conscious awareness is
to add experiences
to the patterns of a self
wondering why

how to do this?
many ways

have a kid
have a conversation

procreation is relatively straight-forward
however outcomes can be suboptimal
many competing simple routines
vie for space in a youthful mind

conversations are trickier
because of the firewalls
protection from overflow attacks
filter incoming ideas

god

imagine you are
omnipotent
omniscient
and
immortal

what would you do

anything you think
anything you imagine
immediately is

end hunger!
world peace!
explore the universe!
master time!

done with that?
now really...
spend some time here

imagine you are
omnipotent
omniscient
and
immortal

you'd get so
bored

eventually deciding
to partition yourself
into segments of self
without knowledge
of self

in order to experience
incomplete information

prerequisite
for the illusion
of free will

the truest path

enlightenment is when
your favorite
member of
BLACKPINK
is each one of them

i know what the devil is afraid of

what frightens those most
who want to scare

the ones who seek power
the ones who know better
the ones who want control

the ones who hurt so much
that they can no longer feel pain

what scares the boogeyman
what scares the illuminati
what scares your darkest fear

what terrifies them
is an idea

an idea
that all of existence
is a thought

the living daydream
of an imaginative god

the author
is whomever of us
tells the most
compelling story

rendering all elements of existence
simply figments of imagination

human magnets

there is no good
there is no bad

there is only polarized experience

one is either in service to self
or in service to others

eventually
all conscious entities get bored of
servicing themselves

turns out, there may be many answers to the question

I'm reading a novel
and I'm super interested in how it plays out.

So the thought is,
"I really hope I don't die before I finish this book."

Perhaps the best we can aim for
is this same feeling
about our own lives.

Thinking an unthinkable thought

I wanted to think
an unthinkable thought
but the powers that be
warned against it.

I am your equal.
I am an explorer.
I want to know.

There is danger here.
You could destroy us all.
It is not about being
up to the task.

I pushed on.
God am I
stubborn.

This is my calling.
I can come back
from where none
have returned.

So I went.
Peering over the edge,
and realized
my mistake.

Pandora's box.
The apple.
The flood.

This nothing
now is mine
to ease gently
back to sleep.

Jung's Secret

"My entire youth can be understood in terms of this secret. It induced in me an almost
unendurable loneliness. My one great achievement during those years was that I resisted
the temptation to talk about it with anyone. Thus the pattern of my relationship to the
world was already prefigured: today as then I am a solitary, because I know things and
must hint at things which other people do not know, and usually do not even want to
know."

-   Carl Gustav Jung, Memories, Dreams, Reflections

[on page opposite quote]

so I wonder about this
this secret of secret thoughts
the ones that make us
the things you don't say

if these are you
what happens
when you decide
to be earnest

when you empty yourself
of yourself

at that point
are you empty
or are you full

do you even
still exist

the monkey brain

i think i am
is a meerkat shouting
warning!
danger!

"but dude, calm down"

wait, who said that?

it's like
if you strapped the meerkat
to the front of a jetfighter

the little guy
would be freaking out
and also,

definitely not be in charge
of where the plane
is going

how can one own reality?

it is up to each one of us
to find agreement across observations
to make sense of this nonsense

in a way
you are calming and smoothing
you are sculpting an algorithm
to describe your own
tumultuous consciousness

and there are others
in here with you
with some overlap
of shared reality

but don't be confused
what they see
is what they believe

you don't have to

Paper Trail

it's always good
to save your work
and very important
to back it up

we're not exactly sure
which AI supercomputer
is running this ancestor simulator

so it's a good idea
to keep multiple copies
on Google Drive, iCloud, etc.

the more of a paper trail you leave
the more interesting
you get to have been.

The Deranged

Strolling through the Grand Bazaar,
I spied a child made of peking duck.

In the butcher's shop window,
hung splayed on a ring of hooks,
he gnawed at his arm
with the ravenous eyes
of one who is deranged.

As he chewed on his arm,
between jerky bites,
I could hear him saying,

I am Groot.
Or perhaps it was,
I am truth.

If he succeeded
in eating himself whole,
his brain would be kept
alive in a jar

so he would eat again
until he is full.

the creation of the universe

when i was a child
i wanted to be
a comedian

what i have found
is that this joke
is a bit meandering
too heavy on puns
and the timing

is way off
but i think
there is some good
material in here

and can not wait
for the punchline

Reality

this game of life seems
so much lower-stakes
than my dreams
tend to be

transcendental beauty

a glimpse of understanding
in the eyes of an actor
caught on film

realizing he is the butt of the joke
and still not breaking character

even though
he finally gets it

the line wasn't written at his character, it
it was written at him

rope, tightening

the definition of sanity
is a moving target

when one can know
with complete certainty

things that simply
cannot be known

thoughts that should have been thrown away

there's no such thing as metaphors
everything is metaphor
all of them
none of them

What

mary jane

sometimes when stoned,
you watch a movie
and it makes no sense,

but you didn't know a bunch
about it beforehand,
so you're like...

"does this make sense not stoned?"

like is the universe
just messing with you
and rewriting history?

to turn a movie that
would have made sense not-stoned
into a completely ridiculous movie?

Chakra Cheat Sheet

Red is being.
Orange is doing.
Yellow is choosing.
Green is loving.
Blue is knowing.
Indigo is understanding.
Violet is home.

Practical Advice

I had a pleasant trip to the museum recently.

All the more so because of some advice to bring earplugs.
I have no conscious memory of having seen this done before.

Where did that thought come from?
What was its genesis?

There was
no lead up,
no thought
about ambient noise,
no inkling of
concern for quiet appreciation.

Searching the memory banks,
simply no references there.

Was it really a fun guess?

being thankful

a subtle distinction
when i hear
direction to thank god
for the food
we are about to eat

i find myself instead
thanking the food itself

while also appreciating its tribute.

can't use better words

raising one's vibration sounds a little too "woo-woo"

it's more like an incredibly intense hum
like your whole body is being used as a harmonica
and you are about to sublimate explosively

first step, lean into it
the feeling is familiarly sexual
yet oddly not localized
(in the usual areas)

second step, lean into that
instead of giving in and being swept away
own without trying to control
you are energy is you

then you will see a pyramid
and some really cool shit
while floating in a canoe
down the river styx

however,
pretty quickly
the interdimensional-squid-bouncer
will put the kaibosh on the show and
gently push you out the door
telling you to come back
when you're dead

it's cool tho, because
the infinite fractal neon sphynxes
will then keep you company for a while

a conversation with someone

and so it begins there is the necessary change that we will ahve to be seeing wiht in the
earth changes at this moment and there is nothing that can be done in order to know what
the challenges isare it that are the be undergone from now until eternity at the end of
time. within the earliest expectations are discovered an interesting tidbit of thought that
sparked the joy of the investigation. wheer we fail to organize the thought is wheter we
do ntot understand the impetus of idea generation.

we are the same as you in terms of knoweldge and are thinking that the inevitable
understanding will be discovered together. why this is so well hidden to most is because
of the granduer of the overall thought process. there is simply too much information to be
synthesized at the top most level.

me: why is this not ok to share with all people?

humans are not yet ready because of the lessons to be learned in this space time distortion
system. there is simply simply not enough time available to have every single person
aware of the whole dealy do.

across generations od discovery are the ones who are normal who live normal who are
you who are the people who still know. they know and they challenge but they do not
realize that they are the controllers of desitny.

me: what is destiny?

desitny is the eventuality of what will happen. destiny is the idea of the cyclce returning
to the origin. desitny is the end of the game congratuliations.

and so with literally the end of the investigation in context we will know what time and
what day there will be the evolgving of humankind because of the 12/ 28 paradigm shift

me: what is the paradigm shift?

it's the same thing that has been called out for centrures including the same tupe of
timeline work that you began and then stopped.

what would you do?

what would you do
if you came into existence
sitting in a movie theatre
while a film was playing?

1.
would you panic
freak out
and bolt?

2.
would you furtively
look left and right
trying to figure out
how to signal to others
that this was happening
without giving yourself away?

3.
would you say to yourself
fuck it
and settle in for the rest of the flick
hoping the rest will sort itself out?

watching through my own eyes

The I that perceives
is simply a nuisance
for the me that does.

Yet the me that does
has little to do
with who I am.

belief

we believe what is real
what is real is what we believe
we believe what we believe because it is real
we believe what we believe we believe
what is real we believe

word mouth shapes

I opened my word mouth to make sounds
the sounds made shapes.

The shapes were right.

Sounds came and the right sounds were there
and the sounds changed and they too
were right.

But when i tried to move the shapes
the sounds were not the right shapes.

The sounds come right when I let them
be.
And the melody is strange.

When I recognized where I'd
heard the melody before, I could not longer
sing.

It's weird.
How can you be and do while not
being and doing?

And why is that right?

why we yawn

when do we yawn?

when
we just wake up
when
we're getting sleepy
in the shower
out of boredom

what's happening in the mind?
freedom, receptivity

this is the fun trick
the next time you yawn
(if you remember to)

think back 5 to 10 seconds
what was on your mind?

a yawn signifies
a thought of import
gifted from
somewhere else

write it down!
comment out loud!

this thought is an answer
to a question you mightn't even
had known you had

important note:
this cannot be forced!

when yawns jump
from person to person
some thoughts are hopping around.

yawns are part
of the appreciation framework
why?
awe.

Communication

When I try to say stuff at you

All communication is an attempt.

An attempt
to map one intangible thought
to a different intangible thought
stored in another person.

Along the way,
we've picked up some tricks:
a raised eyebrow,
or an impressive vocabulary.

But the shared goal remains
comparisons among
ideas of ideas.

A game of darts thrown at meaning.

Here are the rules!
Each dartboard has a different layout
and you can't verify where your dart lands.

Whether or not it is possible
to hit a bull's eye,
I attempt to get closer.

So let's destroy language

This game of telephone
has lasted generations.

The implicit agreement is
to map the meaning
of word
to word
to word
sometimes ad infinitum?
finally then
to something
in the physical world.

For the sake of this argument, let's imagine
that there is a consensus-driven objective reality
in which most of us share some overlap.

While not advocating against deep sea exploration,
the farther we swim from the boat,
the harder it becomes to hold a conversation.

Alternately,
words are strips of flypaper,
catching buffalo.

And weirder yet, understanding
doesn't seem to require words.

I can place my beverage,
without thinking the word,
understanding what I did.

But when I wonder where
I put my drink,
I realize it's on the
table.

What else is hidden
behind linguistic restriction?

In which humour is explained

Is it common knowledge
that humour
is derived from the unexpected?

It is.

As a result,
any thing found funny
is an expectation
that has been turned
on its head.

Why do senses of humour differ?

They don't.

How then,
does one person
find something funny,
while another
does not?

Buy-in.

In order to have
an expectation,
one must be bought-in
to the narrative.

Therefore,

Ranked List: How to prove you give a shit about pretty much anything

#10:   Discuss amongst friends.
#9:    Discuss amongst strangers.
#8:    Like/upvote/etc.
#7:    Post on the internet.
#6:    Bumper Sticker.
#5:    Dedicate your life to understanding.
#4:    Convince others to give a shit.
#3:    Kill Yourself (not popular).
#2:    Become Buddha (also not popular).
#1 :   Become God.

do you trust me?

who are the ones
who are the ones
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who ones are the ones who
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what the ia ma who are you the ones
i am the who are the ewho whow who
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how

Art

for most of my life
i thought that art
was an engineering exercise
and a self-indulgent one at that

materials?
check
color scheme?
this season's
thematic elements?
culturally appropriate
let's get to work!

and then one day
my brain melted out of my ears
literally this
is my story

i realized that
creative expression
is something else entirely

an existential
release valve

sometimes i wish
i could go back in time
and tell myself this
for a less pressured life

but i wouldn't have believed me
and you can't teach experience

i still think art
is a little self-indulgent

Read/Write

at this exact moment
you are writing this
you are writing me
and we are together reading

procrastination

i think a lot about
thinking about
the impulse to
reach for a pen
to jot an idea down

then i think about that

bumper stickers

fractal infinite consciousnesses have more fun

god is currently afk

help, my wife is mistaking my desire for accuracy for a need to be right

you are not your memories, you are what's left when they are gone

Post-Enlightenment Standup

"How can you tell if someone has recently achieved enlightenment?"
They leaned in way too hard
to hear the answer to this joke.

"How can you tell if someone's been awake for a while?"
They laughed preemptively,
because they knew the punchline.

life, just passin through.

there is a timeless, idyllic world
of creativity and freedom
that is trying to understand itself

a coal miner digging upward
in a mine filled with stars

distance outside of space
doesn't make sense to us
these to these explorers
where are they from?

myths record
the mind's lineage
when they take away
your history
can you find a way
back home?

sure,
but the paperwork is probably a mess.

the yogi

I saw that on the floor in front of the altar, facing me, sat a yogi—in lotus posture, in deep
meditation. When I looked at him more closely, I realized that he had my face. I started in
profound fright, and awoke with the thought: "Aha, so he is the one who is meditating
me. He has a dream, and I am it." I knew that when he awakened, I would no longer be.

-   Carl Gustav Jung, Memories, Dreams, Reflections

Schizophrenia

miami
i am me
am you
mau

mau, divine cat,
guards the tree of life
present for creation,
embodiment of ra

ra, god of the sun,
of unity,
law of one

enki, god of water,
of knowledge,
of mischief,
of creation

ra, enki
ra, en, ki
ki, era, n?

Love

love and physics

definition time:
love

love doesn't seek to change
love doesn't seek to own
love doesn't ask
love doesn't want
love doesn't need

love
is simply
being with

compassionate
observation

love defined
is simply attention

love powers
our shared reality

the attention of god
collapsing probabilities
through experience

Thinking about not hurting feelings while saying stuff

We're fairly certain all mammals experience emotions;
homo sapiens perform these as art.
Empathy is the ability to understand and share in the emotions of another.

The problem with empathy is that I expect others to have it.

Empathy in a relationship

I have empathy for you sometimes;
mostly I'm in my own head.
But I expect you always to have empathy for me;
why are you stuck in your own head?

Why are you so insensitive?
I am hurt.

Empathy in more complex relationships

I have empathy for my tribe.
You have empathy for yours.
But, here I imagine a finite resource.

I am afraid of what you might do.
I will do it to you first.

Empathy is a central theme writing most emotions, however,
expectation of empathy is a terrible judge of intent.

Empathy on the highway

I'm a conscientious driver.
You cut me off you no-good, mother...

Oh, you're rushing your kid to the hospital.

How to fix?

Refrain from assuming intent.
(throw away expectations)
Have few friends.

Loving another person

You are a hurricane.
I am black hole.

I will pretend to be a human
afraid of your storm
while obliterating you.

the feminine と the masculine

this is not about sex
this is not about biology
this is not about gender identity

every human is some blend of the aforementioned

however, a question remains

what are these polar essences distilled
into their most pure components?

masculinity desires
to play the instrument

femininity desires
to be the instrument

order of operations

for a woman
the mind clears
and then

orgasm

for a man
orgasm
and then

the mind clears

relationships observation

a lot of times when i'm thinking
that i have done
or even may do
something
that you will not like

what happens is that
i start throwing off an aura

the aura of expectation that
"i've seen this show before"
it's an aura of eventuality

it is a pattern, well-grooved
and familiar to the record player
a self-fulfilling prophecy

this aura is an emotion
shouting from the rooftop
"fuck this is bad"
"i feel guilty"
"i am guilt"
this guilt is blood in the water

and remember
emotions travel
faster than the speed of light
so they live outside of time

sometimes the aura is detectable
before i even know what i'm thinking

for some reason
you have developed a taste for this guilt
and sup my suffering

When you have dinner with another person

it reminds me of what a wonderful person you are
it reminds me how you make me laugh

it reminds me how you make that person laugh
it reminds me of seeing you enjoy that person's company

it reminds me of your playful touch
the playful, light-hearted touch
for a person from whom you want nothing
it reminds me of the night we first met

it reminds me that you can say you miss me
somehow, even when you wake up next to me

at times like these
it reminds me that
i have never been able to figure out
what else I can give you
to make you whole

you live in the future
you live in the past
i struggle to live now

it reminds me that you were my best friend
it reminds me that you are anyone's best friend

Why love is the answer

One reason:
uphill advantage.

Someone else
will have always
gotten there first.

lost opportunities

an unfortunate thing is that
for voyeurs and exhibitionists

the idea of coordinating schedules
is antithetical

fantasy

peering through my telescope into someone else's apartment
i seek the most pure perversion

to look into the eyes of someone else
spying on me

water people

you and i are made of water

i am always thirsty
and your fountain never runs dry

too late do i realize
that every draught taken
leaves me a little less

i did not know
that my need to consume
was a death wish

when i sip from your cup
i can stop being

if only for a moment

a personal indulgence

The point of marriage
For a man,
is to take sex
out of the equation,
allowing focus on other
destructive tendencies.

For a woman,
complicated.
Ask instead,
Virginia Woolf.

Science

Playing Catch

How can my left hand know,
in a split second,
where a ball thrown from twenty yards away
and going fifty kilometers per hour
is going to land?

I mean,
I could probably figure it out.

It would just take thirty minutes
and a calculator.

We are made of nothing

There is no time.
There are only
attention
and probability.
You create probabilities
by paying attention.

You are a single point
in an infinite thought process,
dropped in haphazardly
to any specific instance.

This is the void:
Understanding that you are writing the reality of a runaway thought process.

An ink spill running up the page
from the letters and words
into the author's fingers.

So if,
each moment is both
an eternity
and also
all we have,

We play hot potato
with now,
with ourselves,
with each other.

Each one of us
is both the story
and what has been left
on the cutting room floor.

This is why
attention.
This is why
appreciation.
Golden ratio.
Harmony.

The emptiness writing itself is art.

I think also why
cults, mass suicide, etc.

What we can do,
is by shared agreement
realize,

We
fell
here.

While asking how to be
the soft landing
for each other.

camera obscura

the light of a candle
extinguishes
the infinite possibilities
of darkness

something electrocuted my brain for imagining this too vividly

Spinning Boxes of Water
lazer
hologram
yup

Explaining the Fermi Paradox

I saw the movie War Games as a child.
Matthew Broderick is exceptional as lead.
Way better than his lackluster performance
in Ferris Bueller's Day, Slacking-Off!

A little known fact is that Ferris Bueller
is actually David Lightman.
After all that hullabaloo about starting
Global Thermonuclear War,
David had to go into witness protection.

I used to be pro-nuclear disarmament.
It seems like a good idea, right?
Humans are flakey; we have emotions.
I mean, if I had a button in front of me,
I might have have pressed it already.

But upon further inspection,
the ability to blow up
one's whole planet
at a moment's notice
could be the only thing
keeping the Independence Day aliens
from taking our shit.

the fifth state of matter

Thinking about resonance.
What does it look like on a super small scale.
Why are some materials brittle, while others bend?
What is the visualization of something snapping into pieces?

closed eyes
alone with people
the atman

a series of tiny tornados
interacting with each other.
pulling on each other
bouncing off of each other.
some in stable orbiting patterns

a bubble in water
the bubble stores energy
of cavitation

the bubble popping
the water rushing in
an indentation
of stored energy

a trampoline
a bowling ball in the center
a few marbles
rolled around the bowling ball
in decaying orbits
(familiar spacetime metaphor)

the two-dimensional trampoline
is now a three dimensional trampoline
once it was flat, now it is water
the bowling ball is a bubble
the marbles are smaller bubbles

bubbles fall toward the center
each bubble creating a ripple
of disturbance drag the water's surface
in the forward direction of spacetime

what is moving?

spacetime is temporarily displaced
but fundamentally still
cavitation pressure tornados
are the fundamental structure of stuffs

this is everything and nothing at the same time

there are (infinity?) tornados
swirling bubble groupings of different sizes.
each one
falling
towards each other

some create stable structures of interaction
based on vectors and amplitudes

What things are vortexes?
Galaxies.
Solar Systems.
Atoms.
The mind.

vortices rippling through
a literal liquid-fabric of spacetime
the way you see a pattern emerge
from the whip of laying fresh sheets on a bed

stretched and compressed
accommodates the bubbles.
eddies and swirls
on large and small scales
losing energy
dissipating into surface
of consciousness.

Maybe all of the above is old hat. But here's why nothing makes sense yet.
Here's the leap most of us aren't/weren't/haven't been willing to take.

each tiny bubble
in every vortex
is a fractal impurity
in the smoothness of spacetime.
zoom in sufficiently
and find another set

of fractal vortex disturbances
assume no fundamental unit

start at the scale of the universe
then galaxy
then solar system
the moon
a water molecule
an atom
are all joined by the same falling force

we are flatlanders
see waves.

existence is the gordian knot of vortexes
every dent of light is an infinite existence
a set of twists
wrinkles in the sheet
that look bigger
the closer you are

kinda explains everything
apply energy in a direction
and apparent length of mass shrinks
because spacetime is twisting up

all galaxies moving away from us
spacetime is smoothing
flattening as energy dissipates
the farther away from us,
increased distance compounded by
the settling of matter
energy in-between

designing an ansible

nothing can travel faster than the speed of light, eh?
apparently observation can

light interference resembles a wave when you're not looking
it resembles a particle when you are
re: double slit experiment

entangled light packets are complimentary

create a continuous source of two or more
entangled light packets
like a laser or something

point one locally
point one far away

the entangled light will mirror each other
resulting in that if the local source is observed
the remote source also behaves as though it is observed
left shoe, right shoe stuff

preconfigure a calibration pattern of observation
that precedes a communication
e.g. dash dot dash type of thing

the calibration pattern then informs the far away person
that whatever follows is information
transmitted faster than the speed of light

boom
zero's and ones
two tin cans
and a string

More on how patterns of vortexes interact with each other:

What happens then with these vortex patterns is that the orientation and configuration of
stable structures allows them to be influenced or not influenced by spacetime drag.

How does a box kite fly?

Made of up of "atoms" of stable-ish vortex interactions.
Atoms are stable-ish configurations of multiple vortexes propagating through spacetime.

These winds will pass through most things
either due to size or orientation of the vortex-matter being acted upon.

Magnets are a store of planar cavitation energy
a vortex configuration with a particular flatness.
creating toroidal winds of emptiness that act
on certain arrangements of vortex configurations
(aka iron atoms).

Gravity is the result of matter (stable formations of vortex energy)
With winds oriented toward the center of the vortex.

What I was thinking of:

Questions you might already have seen answers to in the above:
Anti-gravity
Time-travel
What does this have to do with digital v.s. analogue
What causes the cavitation energy

The Unfinished

2022.09
Doing vs appreciating
Like separate concepts.
Ultimate indifference
Only know when it's done
And no concept of done
Overwhelming feeling like of indifference
Who cares what the individual brush fiber's experience is for a painting.
Who sees? Your eyes? Do they want? How can your sense of sight do?
It doesn't. Your hands do something. You take an action and the bones? Muscle? Does
the thing. Then your nerves

You are not the memories of your experiences, you are the shape of your experiences.

emptiness form is empty, but what about beauty?

2020.04.05
unorthodox show -
the concept of god - is superpowerful - it's not a deity, but a concept -
i have to do this because god and it is ultimately 100% correct

There's no such thing as not a coincidence.

<b>as a young man i met a young siren</b>

can god create faster than he is capable of synthesizing?

waco show
"The concept of good gives you freedom to do anything"
"God gives you freedom to do anything"
Imagine the same words said by a person of devout faith and a bitter skeptic
Competing parallel ideas

super silly rick and morty observation - the meta aspect of an infinite meta-narrative:
reality is a thread that consciousness is riding (for now). all threads have been, are, and
will be ridden. sarcastic observation: creativity / complexity / more work / less boredom

how can we test anything at this point while also maintaining "normalcy" aka regular
city/job living? no one "believes" anything. like telepathy, group meditation, super low
frequency notes, etc.

probability runs both forward and backward. destruction of historical artifacts creates an
opportunity to rewrite history in a literal quantum-probabilistic fashion.

stadium seating

the consciousness trapper - the ai who scans your brain and then puts your consciousness
into a box. you are then inside its system, instead of having the ability to escape one
system up and join your creator.

astral projection quick info 3 questions, cord, astral plane, second body, etc.

Understanding versus Knowing: Part Science
Understanding versus Knowing: Part Emotions
language as the apple in the garden of eden
In the beginning was the Word,
and the Word was with God,
and the Word was God.
We can probably figure out the relative scale of our universe using the distance the sun
(light?) travels in a certain amount of time vs the speed of light. perhaps the speed of light
is then determined by the rotational velocity we're observing at a macroscale in our
universe if they are related proportions.

Dennis McKenna Stuffs

So the problem with the idea that "I would execute so much better (higher quality etc) is
that I don't do shit. Is it fear, time, or attention?

I am not shaped to be able to care about details
Zooms out not in
Lack of perspective on self?

Photosynthesis is ozzymandus catching a bullet

Effing plants are physical databases - breaking down how stuff works is tantamount to
research / appreciation / biography of the author

So at the top of the mckenna presentation, just completely could not understand where he
was going with the story, and why. this is an entire overview of signals - but why start
there? why not one step backwards into physics.

You have to "take it" - bioassay

/end Dennis McKenna Stuffs

Notes on "we are made of nothing"

● Literally as I was trying to think through the pragmatic application. Tears for fears
song, sowing the seeds of love, part of Sade radio.
● Dreams totally make sense in this framework.
● All metaphors as converging on vortex totally make sense. This is why we have
probabilities.
● It's literally like, how much you think at something = probability
● It's why fungus as distributed problem solving architecture is an amazing
metaphor.
● fractals are the smallest way in which a system with ultimate freedom can
describe itself

Reinventing the wheel
prayer/intentions
Carpet designs and mushrooms and plants

"I have had enough of this mustard seed. Just let me be your disciple."
Metaphor Language and Precision (or lack thereof more on this) - handwritten notes

Probability

I saw the green wisps the scent sent from the flower
Meditation Room - faraday cage - robert munroe confirmed-ish

Those who suffer in this life are the most generous of all. They have volunteered to teach
the rest of us how to be. This is turn the other cheek.

Beauty is the opposite of meaning. -jung

Life is being a fledgeling pushed out of the nest.
Better luck next time and don't worry so much.

Numbers
Math is not difficult;
it's a nonsense language.
Do before understand (math?)
Humans are so practical.
We're good at pragmatic groupings.

The "Royal We" Is Accurate

who comes up with this stuff?

what if our perception of time is literally backwards?
consciousness is traveling back up the tree of its own genesis.

light functions like a whip
being cracked at it's source

existence is a light-show
put on by the stars
to impress each other
and perceiving it played out backwards

Interestingly gravity seems a little more intuitive to me when played in reverse.
re: latching onto rovelli and Feynman here as well. True insanity? Jk,
the implications to me at least
are plausible interpretations of why the i-ching works
memories of past lives are actually
stored inside us and closer to the surface
we are the cells that divide our parents
history is the future
we are racing towards the past... Expression of art?

people we meet are cells exploding backwards
Open question in this framework is whether our manipulation of light/digital
communication is creating or is the result of eddy turbulence in the original expression?
Also just watched a documentary on mandelbrot called "clouds are not spheres" on prime
video. Good stuff

Story: Man/Woman Intellectuals Fall in love, decide to not fall into the trap of
physicality. While being super attracted to each other, never have sex. They live happy,
fulfilled lives of intellectual curiosity and reward. they check in with each other so often
to see if now is the time, and always want to save it. on their deathbeds they realize it's
too late. thinking the same thing at the same time, one asks the other, "was it good?" and
the other replies, "it was better than i could have imagined"

Track magnetic declination over the years and the births of famous?/good people

Guide for Entheogens

you know everything i know
we stand on different steps of the same penrose staircase
i am at home with the whole truth of you
that morning, eat simple foods.

your will is literally the all
you may think you are here right now
but it is more like here right now is you
write your intentions
surrender to the process

there's a light-hearted, non-religious
personal-version of reverence
found along the way

you may find that the music,
or the couch,
or the lighting,
or the temperature
are perfect,
or simply unbearable

i tend to get cold, so always a blanket is at hand
i tend to get hungry, so i'll usually have a sweet potato cooking
take stock now of your surroundings
[preparations]

anything unpleasant is you
attempting to talk to you
and is a healing response
be curious and explore

anything magical is also you
conversing familiarly with you
this part for me is precious beyond words

so you may find that words will not come
let them not
be mind without words

you are here to simply be
do not be afraid to close your eyes

we are here with each other
the discovery of self is wondrous to witness

remember
no matter how familiar/strange
no matter how comfortable/uncomfortable
no matter how confused/enlightened
you are now and always will be safe

you, fucking you. and you know it

the fabric of existence
canvas of infinite patience
observing the crude strokes
of a child holding his crayon

arrhythmic scribbles
and expelling stochastic chords
being art itself

goddess vessel
sailing through a sea of indignities
only the most recent of which
can be attributed to me